the ups and downs

Well, I gave them what they deserved
not really
A semi-satisfying gig.
I met some really nice people in Olney
and a web designer/basic tech guru from Kentucky
Gypsy was her name
I liked her vim
a home schooled girl
I kept thinking how open she seemed
and how the public/private school systems we have either forces you into submission or creates a megalomaniacal complex
nothing in between
it's all black and white. ha.
i kid.

anyway, back at home after the show
what a bummer
my girl and I
we just dont click
yeah that one that I said I am strangely still in love with
well, it's just not working.

I figure this is the two year itch syndrome I hear so much about
it is 2, right?

I was really tired last night and I am just waking from a much needed sleep
I am looking into getting my muzac up on the web this weekend
getting back into what makes me happy

It really is performing, watching people's faces in the crowd
wondering if they're thinking what I'm thinking
hoping I am getting my tangled message across
what is my message?

its so convoluted I don't really even know
these songs just emmenate
permeate and infiltrate
(wow, I just had a jesse Jackson moment)
punctuate
master.....
I meant it to be so more poetic
sometimes you got to laugh
at yourself